Moments

Been so missing such stuff... Throughout my life. Of course, every "you" is probably different and most of these are not love stories, though a few of them are.

Hand in your hands, stunned looking at a dilapidated wall with a big black "break down" written on, circled. This is probably my first memory ever.

The stairwell of a not-so-old apartment. Way up to your flat. We were just kids.
You said "I hate you", without giving me time to surprise, "the opposite."
"What's that opposite?" You just avoided that and giggled, then ran faster up.

Lined up marching down the stairs, I asked, "Do you still remember what you said to me that time?" You just look hazed.

Hid a message asking you out in an origami, but I was late that time and you've already gone. Looked at the busy street helpless.

Way home together, at a small roadside water bar.
"Two pearl milk tea" You said to the sales person, then turn to me, "Which flavour you like?"
I hardly remembered what did I actually order cos that happened too many times. The only thing I know is that mango was among them, and it was disgustingly sweet. You were always treating me and I still cannot find a chance to treat you back until now.

Meant no offense trying to approach while you were talking with someone else, got only one word "Gossipy". Turned away fast.

A small hot dog stand in a strange city of a strange country.
We bought hot dogs for ourselves, not knowing what "ketchup" and "custard" means, not even until the sales person gave us some each as sample, I still cannot recognize the custard so I just chose ketchup. You had both and we sneak back to the hall of our hotel, had it and tried not to be seen. Anyway I got furiously scolded for taking you out that evening.

In a small noodle house, I am on diet.
We ordered only one Noodle and started head to head, until you said "Well this is not gonna work, you first." Then I just took half of that bowl of noodle and watched you had the rest.

At home on my bed.
Crying for the whole noon when received your text, got a bit of stronger after that but still blown by another "you".

At the bus stop where we usually wait for our bus to school. School time.
I approached you and murmured "Sorry", you turned back and, after a week of no conversation at all, you began to talk to me.

Night, I asked your mobile phone number, you told me, I forced myself to remember it by heart, not using my phone to record it, I managed to remember that number for quite a long time even after we stopped going out together.
And I managed to forget it now.

I whispered something into your ear while holding you, you just sprung up and runaway. I cannot forget that last glance on me, stunned and hurt.

Walking on a bridge with you, you screamed "I love you" to the river. Well, you love the river, I know.

Midnight, woke up crying for you, cannot be myself without you. Sent you a text saying "I miss you" without describing how much, yet unfortunately got overlooked by somebody else, and luckily.

On a party, where we played the instruments, there was a time we should gong but we didn't, just winked to each other, and go on.

In front of a school building, you handed me a hand-knitted scarf for me and we embrace.

Lifted a bit of the curtain of the porthole, it was all golden outside with the rising sun, my world had never been so beautiful.

You left my room, leaving me collapsed, alone, and hopeless.

On a tram in the evening.
I will be going down this stop. You were sitting while I am standing. I bent down to almost touching your lips to find it too embarrassed to do it here, and went down the tram laughing.

Lots of Nothing to Say

well i was always thinking that i got lots of stuff to say on this quiet blog cos i wudn't mind anyone wud spread this. and i was always feeling nothing to say facing the screen like now.

Well Well Well

It is real disgusting that THE PARTY had blocked Blogspot from being viewed within China, and it was strange that blogger itself is not and I didn't know... That's why I wasn't here 'til today. I hope I could view this blog upon completion using freegate, a software designed for breaking the net blocks by THE PARTY, it is hard to download from html within china cos all search pages for it is also blocked, however, it won't take a sec to get that from eMule, which no one can block LOL~

It's kind of a lazy month since backing in China, though quite busy visiting friends. The one thing I did good was traveling to Guangxi, alone. The people there r quite nice and fun, and I got drunk the last night in Yangshuo lol... (not that proud to say it was Tequila) Well the scenery there's not just kind of so great that one should get a chance to c.

I will be back to Melb the week after next, which is not that far away, the feeling is so hard to tell... One would miss something that is lost, not the ones gained, true, true. Think I'll miss China right after going back, but will not quite as much as last time... Even if it was for THE PARTY alone.

What the hell is this now...

I thought we end, I told everyone I am single now, while u come back... I have to pick everything I've thrown out back for u.

What am I supposed to do? We r definitely not to be in the same city, at least for quite a while. Which means, we are playing distance, which I been afraid of.

I want u back, back here with me, better be forever.

Emptiness

Don't know if it really is that I've been studying too hard through the semester, when the exam passes all I feel is not quite happy and be crazy about enjoying my holiday, but a total emptiness deep within. Just feeling somewhat unrest while doing nothing or simply playing.
Couldn't know how nor why, or I should get myself some more to do now.

Devil

I nvr know I am that kind of destructive ones til just now I look back and realize (LOL)... Ya this story is actually eras ago.

There was a party, or actually a gather up, that I met a couple. We just there knowing each other and some chatting, without knowing sth is gonna happen...

After that I found one of them unusually talkative to me, not long after that, I hear them part, unsurprisingly. That one immediately run for me but I got bit of afraid and actually not quite satisfied with this guy actually so found another one hurriedly just to hide myself from it (The reason here is not just that, but I might give some hints of them bout the others below...). I rejected without saying this way and been satisfied with the result.

I found the one I've chosen hurriedly not that bad and treats me really good, so we got on peacefully until we geographically part... But actually I broke this one from the partner to get it, although there're reasons of themselves as well...

I was so shocked when the partner of that first couple confessed to me... I just know I can't give nothing and rejected, this one seems hurt but sured to recovered after a while. But it becomes so weird that both guys like me in that particular couple...

I think I am a devil.

See my NEW LINK there?>>>>

Ya that Music Lee one. just found those musics that guy'd made AWESOME!!

It is so weird for me that this guy didn't become a star but remain a Music teacher for a middle school in Taiwan.

What's more weird is that he's got lotsa students working for him unpromptedly on composing and lyrics, they are all tremendous! Maybe the saying "there's never bad student, but bad teacher" is what make this happen.

eBay, you teach me what wordless mean,

When I first come to Australia, I used the eBay ID I registered in China like years ago and change my contact details and profile to Australia. I could buy stuff on eBay Australian site no problem, but it seems that all the notices, ads, anything that eBay send officially is Actually from the HK site. I contacted the customer service for times, and it doesn't seem turning any good.
Thing is, eBay just sent me an email in Spanish...Orz

How BIG is the W?

So frustrated that when I finally reach there, the wii games sale $88 for two had nearly com to an end...
On the shelf, Super Monkey Ball is gone, Call of Duty3 is gone, which the main reason I'd come gone. OK, there's still one Medal of Honors left, as well as a unique NFSC, I grabbed those two boxes to the counter, at least second choice, seeing full shelf of TMNT or Tiger Woods 07, which I wonder whether they had ever sold one.
It's weird that the guy in the counter couldn't find any of the two games. I tried to ask him how bout Call of Duty 3? he's like dug into the drawer again and say ya there is one! And I find ur Medal of Honor too! Orz...
But he still can't get Super Monkey Ball, maybe it's really sold out...
so here comes another problem, where's the box for my Call of Duty 3???
Me and the staff turned the shelf inside out to not finding a hint of that box, and he told me in sorrow, we can get you the box for display... Why the hell not tell me in the first place? I'v already turned that shelf inside out when I was trying to find the game!!!
I got 2 FPS game which I were to just have either home at last with that fancy price and just played one til now... But luckily Medal of Honor is not bad LOL, especially for me, who don't usually play FPS...

I am afraid of feeling lonely, sometimes

I would never imagine I would couple of years ago when I do everything on my own. Wandering around, shopping, going to movies... It was not until I had someone to go out with I was not alone, but I had never felt lonely. I enjoy doing things alone, hum songs without anyone shout me stop alone. I don't even know, or I just don't feel it, what lonely is about.

I listen to different music, enjoy different sports, feel things differently than almost anyone around at that time, not noticing that I am totally not part of them.

But I do feel lonely, now.

The more... the more...

Yep here comes another elementary school sentence making challenge...
The more I earn, the more I spend. If you find this reasonable, just one thing missing - I am the kind to spend $100 celebrating a $10 promotion.
The more I study, the more I confuse. Ya, That's an always no-comment truth. Knowledge is knowing that you don't know, not just knowing what you don't know.
The more I sleep, the more tired I get. Popularized phenomena among all us under 30's(Hey this number... I should've said 20 but I am already got that old to have to compare myself with those ppl)...
The more I put into love, the less I was to get. Simply because all I get is already put into love, and unfortunately, love's greedy. Someone recently complaint no one's ever loved him, I do feel missed out of this world at that...

Wii

Been too busy playing wii to write something on here lol~
Just forget the gym, have some fun and receive a good body build with it!
Before the launch of Wii Fit next year, the boxing game included in the Wii Sports shud b the most sweating game on wii, though it is weird that some move seems to be unregisterable, which is soooooo annoying...

Credit please~ No cash out thank you!

Been practicing this for a while, just in case next time when i check out in safeway, to be sure that I will be able to spit it out without thinking.
It's been so hard to get my first credit card in my not-yet-long-enough life. That stupid bank sent my card to my old homestay address, and I'm not aware after about one month that I really could not wait and called them to find out. All I could do is I canceled that card and demanded a new one. Yet the previous card is redirected to me by dear Peter, which arrive just 3 days after the cancellation. I phoned the bank again to find out whether I could activate the old one instead and was told no. So I waited for another week to finally received it.
It's been more than 40 days since I was informed that my card is approved when I finally receive my card. What a so-called efficiency!!

Immature driving driven cycling problem

Just found how it become so hard while I was riding my bike, and how my dull driving skills has to affect this.
While I do drive in China, I got used to accelerate fiercely and break suddenly. I didn't realize this until I apply the strategy on cycling, finding myself so exhausted. You know, while an engine suffers, you can seldom figure out how the engine feel, but you will know immediately while it comes out that it is your body which suffers.
Tried not to do that yesterday while cycling, I just keep up the steps, never allow fierce moves, which makes me much better.
Think I should get an idea for my driving as well by now.

Falling

The now 22-year-old boy, falling, to find his material pleasure, by living a rotten life.
Kiss no longer mean a thing to him, would some time followed by sex, he guess.
Changing a mate is as easy as changing a shoe, never promise, never say anything not necessary, that will do. They will understand.
Just let it fall.

The Terminal

What's going on while a tram reaches its terminal? The driver simply get off and drive on the other side of it, and the tram goes back to the opposite terminal of the line.
The tram goes always on the same line, but everything changes. Different passengers on board every journey; tram officers inspecting now and then, taking off different people; the drivers call out the name of the stops and give a little introduction sometimes; the tram just go through a stop where nobody's gonna go up or down with a "ding"; the tram itself gets older; different ads on board promoting different stuffs.
Just like time. Time goes plain on and everything seems to be different. weather turns hot then cold, with thunders or tornadoes or tsunamis; people getting healthy and sick, older then dead; buildings rise and fall, then accumulate and urbanize.

Showery Life

I do remember I brought the USB Cable for my Hi-MD from China, but I just Can't find it anywhere... So? Buy one here for A$55, sick about the price? You can have it on eBay where it's $20 USD and freight inclusive, but you got to wait 1 month to receive it, what's worse, I don't get a credit card to purchase anything on eBay because I can't pass the certification!
End of financial year sale? Cool. How about a waterproof boot from Timberland for 50% off RRP? Just useful for my classes in the fields. A$120 thank you and have a good day~
When is it gonna end? My showery life in Melbourne...

FREE~~

Exams end everything end.
I return to my sleep, for ten, a hundred years, you have a chance, I look forward to it. (hmm... I'm not Orochi)
Just get bored and stub on this haunted blog~~
Today's Duanwu Jie, which I should go out and get some Zongzi... Cya~
Haha~

Dissapointed...

Tried to put a music on here, but not satisfy with the effect. Both google gadgets and straight input files are slow. What's worse, the gadgets almost support only mp3 files or the homepages of the creators, which limits the choice of music. AND! They're ugly...

Yesterday, Your Birthday

Should be the first one ever that I didn't spend with you since the first time we met... Simply because we are too far apart.
We chatted yesterday, though not much. I was to call you and you said your phone's got a problem. It should be better than I just cry on your birthday from thousands of miles away and calling you just to make you hear.
I know I still can't let go, even after we haven't met for nearly one year.
The scar you gave is deep inside me, it still hurts whenever I miss you. You are the one for me, I'm not for you. That's what people regard tragedy.
We were apart, then together, then apart, then far apart. You just in me, ever since the first time I realize your existence. You are whom I will never escape wherever I am, which was destined.
I am losing the ability to love. The feeling of in love just fade, leaving you in mind. I tried but trapped. Maybe I could find someone someday to love me overwhelmingly enough to take up your place in my mind, but it's definitely no one until now, when it was two years since we part.
The scenes betweens us still feels like yesterday. The first time I grabbed your hand in class, the first time I hugged you from the back, and the first time I was turned on. The moment my arms around you while sleeping, the time we spent going around skipping classes, the sweet squabbling between us. The moment I hear your heartbeat, the moment I hear my heartbreak. The last time I kissed your neck, the last time I nipped your ear, and the moment you turned around staring at me and pushed me away.
Anyway, happy birthday.