From This to That

Hmm you've changed, I mean you towards me, since last time we met.

After the last time, I was like pretty sure I'm in love with you while you kept telling me things like you enjoyed being single, you're not ready and all sorts of stuff. And you always tell me that I love you more than you do. Well, I can't think of a reason not to admit that until this time. And I've been giving myself various excuses when it comes to all those temptations.

And this time, I do feel that you've changed, Although you didn't tell or you might not have realized yourself, that you love me. While you are still telling me that I love you more than you do and I'll start to think about it now. And, I'll not be able to persuade myself with those excuses anymore, because I started to feel my responsibility to you. And I felt like I've hurt you before using those excuses, and I feel guilty. I do.

Well responsibility, a long lost word for me. And I'm picking it up. And I'm not dropping it again, hopefully.

the Ugly Chinese

This book is written some 20 years ago in 1984 by Bo Yang, a famous Taiwanese author who passed away earlier this year. I've heard of this book for a pretty long time but I hadn't got a chance til recently to have bought it from Taiwan and read it thorough. This book is also published in mainland China in the year 2004, but censored of course, I guess most of the second part of the book is gone cos "different" voice from the government is presented as the responses to the book goes on like a war on the Chinese magazines of the United States.

Well it was my opinion, I don't know whether it was that Chinese people had become uglier or something, this book doesn't seem to have revealed every ugly thing about the Chinese people, such as shameless and greedy as far as I see. Anyway, Mr Bo Yang wrote this book in the hope of seeing the 'uprising' of the Chinese people and community in the world, whereas I've already lost every single hope of Chinese ever being any good again. They are just hopeless. They are boasting of what a long history or what dazzling achievements Chinese had achieve in the ancient times, well note this 'ancient times', look around yourself now do you see any modern utilities been developed or invented by Chinese? Nothing.

Self-humiliation while comparing themselves to the people in developed country while cynic towards everything in the developed world and jeer anyone that goes towards them as toady to foreign powers, well, if there is something that the developed world is doing better than the traditional way (not just some I guarantee, heaps), what one should do is not to try to push it down by groundless blames and not admitting that you yourself is inferior but to think of what is so good about it and either find a way to make yourself superior of even simply mimic is better than just satirizing the good ones and keep your stupid way. And that is what Chinese people are doing and that is why I lost all hope.

Every single time that the government had done something wrong or lied about something, what they do was not to try to find the truth but help the government to cover its fault 'for good' or 'for the respect of our glorious China' while your rotten China had already been known as the biggest liar in the world.

Most recently, the so called 'Shenzhou 7' the spaceship, absolutely fake and few people actually doubt that within China after a bunch of hints pointing directly towards the falseness of it: a news leak about the spaceship describing in every detail of the spaceship in the space when it was not even launched, bubbles (well they manipulated the videos on Youtube so that the 'bubbles' look like pieces of paper as they say, which further proves the falseness of the spaceship) that indicates the video is shot underwater, an aside that calls for two 'motiles' approach 'underwater', the sudden change of type of clothes from cordless from the ship to corded indicates airflow need when you think of they are underwater so that there would be less bubbles (still proved to be inevitable though), the time difference between the portion of earth shown in video and the 'actual' time demonstrated, plus the video had demonstrated the 'getting out' from various angles showing the astronauts while there's nothing about the spaceship itself and all the camera is focussed at the door of the cabin, don't think it bit ridiculous? Well if there's only one suspectation was observed I might trust the the saying of the government, but what about all these? I wouldn't believe these evidences are all fake and only what the Chinese government says is true.

Someone asked me recently that whether the Chinese government was corrupt or not, my answer was very. And when asked 'could you buy someone over?' the answer would be you will HAVE TO buy someone over in many circumstances or you are just nothing. The whole government is corrupt like that and nobody ever give a shit that they are even happy to buy them over for a ‘reassurance'. No wonder huh?

The bottom line is that, this is a pretty good book for the mainland Chinese people as an enlightenment. It does show many of ugly behavior that is unique to Chinese people and will show them that 'if you guys don't do anything about such I don't see a future of China', and they did absolutely nothing I would say.

And believe me buying the uncensored Taiwanese version is a must if you are gonna read this one or you could actually compare the two versions and see how evil the Chinese government is that they don't even tolerate any say against it.

Newcastle

Actually been back for like a week now, was impressive and I liked it.

I was pretty shocked mistaking Sydney as Newcastle on the plane, well if it really was that would be horrible, endless lights spreading into the night, a city that never sleeps. I thought Newcastle would not be that huge, and I was right.

The airport is obviously small, with only two or three parking places for planes. and you will have to go around the plane to get back to the terminal building. Switching on my phone, considering that you might not have arrived that I should call after going to toilet. I was rushing to that sign of a faceless stand straight man while you suddenly spoke into my ear that you are going to pay for your parking.

You drove me around the city although it is dark and not much is actually seen, all I could feel was Newcastle is actually a pretty hilly city with heaps of beaches. Then to your place, which was pretty dark (no doubt at night). We are both bit tired and we just fell asleep.

The weather next morning was pretty pleasant as far as I remember, and I was surprised that it was actually Lake Macquarie outside your window. Was to go to the beach but it seems we are pretty slack so we only got to go for grocery shopping and for the materials I need to cook for tonight.

It took quite some effort to find the Asian grocery that you found on the Yellow Page, we finally got there though. Well, just really a grocery, pretty small, we found all what we need though, that's good enough.

It was hard to find the steamer under your housemate's bed, we pulled out every single box and opened them and checked, and it was finally there. Pretty small one, means we'll have to divide the chicken into two and steam them separately.

Yes steamed chicken with Shitake mushroom is one of the dishes that night, with boiled dumplings and a stir fry. Rice had to be bought from a nearby restaurant as you don't have a rice cooker here.

The vegetarian stir fry was surprisingly good as I actually seldom do stir fries. (stir fry is actually not Asian, instead American-Asian as we don't actually do it at home, it was invented by the immigrants but you guys love it) It seems the chicken was not as welcomed, think it was bit bland though but I still love it. Seems we had a lot of alcohol that night.

The next day we got up at 6AM, going to Maitland where you worked, I just go around the small town and take pictures everywhere. Two things surprised me, it was not a big town and there are like half a dozen churches, and the churches sound bells! This immediately evaluates my favor towards the town. At the centre of the main street mall was all kinds people singing and dancing hilariouly. Bored and tired by the last one or two hours of the waiting, I just sat at the back.

It rains in the afternoon and we were trapped in the cafe of Hunter Valley Gardens, pretty regretful that we didn't visit the vineyards though, just comforting myself that the grapes are not ripened at this time of year, and there is always next time.

It was another slack morning on Sunday, and a 'completely Aussie BBQ experience' for me at lunch. Everything's overcooked (just as usual) though...

Beach. Simply wonderful.

The last day, we had a fight in the morning, my fault though. And we just drove around trying to kill the time before the flight, realizing there's no opening restaurant for a dinner at 4PM the only choice was junk food.

We seated ourselves right opposite to the chek in counters chilling for like an hour and felt the guys inside peeping at us, and it was time to go.

Got myself a Latte and a window seat, a bit of a rush, just finished replying a guy on facebook and it was boarding time.

I will remember that old man running on and off the skybus like five times and making me miss the train home!!!

Lots of Podspeakers by Scandyna Recently

Yes you don't have to tell me they are cute, I knew it. Well I've been dreaming to have a pair of the Drop with the Amp from Scandyna, and I finally did. And as usual, things that you don't actually own is always more attractive. And yes, I am thinking of the Minipod now...

I'd been wondering the difference between the two, same manufacturer, same units, would it be same performance just different design? I found an article that indirectly says: Not really. Although this review rather than mentioning the Minipod, tested the Cinepod, which is pretty close to the design of the Minipod. Btw, a review solely and technically on the Drop is pretty hard to find on the internet at the moment...

The biggest difference between the Cinepod/the Minipod and the Drop is, that the drop is a sealed box design while the other two are relax cabinet, see the holes down there? That one's not present on the Drop although it might just look decorative for symmetry on the Minipod.

Well I do not have a Minipod or Cinepod, but according to the articles I've found, the main difference in terms of sound would be that the Drop have a quick, slick and punchy sound while the other two would rather have a mellow, widened and laid-back sound thanks to that hole there. (I've read some of the reviews solely on the Minipod which support this)

That means I really should have, both... orz

Well I'm at least not regret with my choice cos the design of the Drop are simply astonishing, and I do listen to musics such as trance and D'n'B which are punchy by the nature (I tried them and they sound gorgeous). But on the other hand I do enjoy some chill out and Bach while relaxing which is obviously more on the Minipod's end. So, how about the Julibee matte black version of Minipod with golden sputniks? Well when I have that money and if they are still there I might. But here comes another problem, the Amp would only support one pair of speakers and, I don't actually have a desk big enough for both pairs, the Amp, my SACD player by Marantz and my laptop...

OK let's talk about the sound of my Drops and the Amp (the other components of the system include the Microsub which I got some time ago and sound sources including an SACD player, my laptop and my MD player), one word, incredible. Especially when it comes to the details. I'm not good at explaining such but you will know it when you hear it. The high is slick and dazzling while the mid-range is smooth and flaring, the bass is sort of not deep enough as the Microsub is the smallest sub within the line of Scandyna. (Mentioning the Microsub, I got it with my Micropods as a set and sold the Micropods when I made up my mind to get the Drop and the Amp but saving the Microsub cos I knew I'll need it :P)

Another thing that I began to miss is the Ferguson Hill FH007, a totally transparent speaker system minimized from the luxury FH001-003 system. I just comforted myself by wondering how long does it take to turn yellow and again, although minimized, I don't have the space for them. The class A/B amp included in this system does sound tempting though. (The Amp is a revised design class D which is said to be comparable with class A/B amps, well using the technologies from B&W again I suppose?) Well I have to say that the huge version is way astonishing though.

Yes I am in love with Scandyna the day I got my box of Micropod+Microsub 2.1 system. for that one, the process of sticking the spuniks into the pods are dodgy as far as I recall and I was actually upset that the manufacturing is not very good for that one (again the sin of Made in China) that made me sort of disappointed until I hear the sound from that little round white box. Well the Drop, you might have known after seeing the price tag, is Made in Denmark and the finish is way better than the Micropods, thile the Amp is still a Made in China, it was not as bad as the Micropod, again, related to its price tag I have to say.

Sushi

I've actually never imagined I would work in a sushi shop like this... Not even now did I ever consider that I would stay there for any long. But I actually stayed and decided to work here at least for now.

They pay shit no wonder. There are good sides though, I got a free lunch there and the sushi that is left over could be taken home for dinner which means i got two meals on top of the pay, well we earn for living and eating is no doubt part of it right? Plus the people working there are nice to me and I could actually burn some serious fat doing the hard work. Yeah, so why not?

Btw, just found that the avocado rolls from this shop is nice :P

Die Welle

The English name is translated 'the Wave'. This movie's in German, as my German is obviously not good enough to watch it straight and the English subtitle is mystically missing (hope it will be on the internet soon though), I actually had to change my windows setting to make it able to encode non-Unicode Chinese so I could load a Chinese subtitle and I was finally watching it, and change it back after finishing. The effort is all worth it though.

The movie's recomposed from a true story about a high school teacher's experiment on his students on autocracy, the original story started 1967 in California's Palo Alto Cubberley High while in the movie the story is relocated within Germany. The use of simple but strict discipline, uniform and the collective consciousness, which made himself a autocrat to the group in a stunning five days. After all these the mind control slipped in without the conscious of even the teacher himself, the students have all changed. They become adulatory, selfish and not even conscious of what they are doing as the concept of a group had gone too far in their minds.

The students named the group as 'die Welle', established a website, made their own logo and spread it, they even made up a gesture for the group and tries to exclude and isolate everyone that opposes the motivation, all spontaneously. And they finally become some kind of gang that even go out on streets to fight other gangs.

The ending is obviously not happy. As the teacher realized he is going a bit too far after all those five days, he demonstrated the harm that had already done on their students, to show that Nazism and Fascism is already successfully established in the group and how disastrous it can be if they simply allow this going on. Some of the students, unfortunately, had already gone too far that one of the students even regard 'die Welle' as his whole life that he refuse to end this farce. He's got a gun somehow and after hurting a classmate he shot himself in the throat as 'die Welle' is dead and there's nothing left on earth for him. The teacher is arrested for going too far and the story ends.

The movie thrilled me, deeply. What is most shocking to me is that most of the methods used to achieve autocracy in this movie, I've actually been through while I was back in China. From elementary school we are asked to practice stepping simultaneously, sit properly, raising hands before allowed to speak in class, compulsorily wear uniforms on school days, arranging seats so that 'good' students are usually sit next 'bad' students, elimination of individuality, be encouraged to tattle against even the closest friends... And I believe that this is how the Chinese government achieve its autocracy, and most of the Chinese people are not aware what they have been through and they are still mind-controlled by the government after growing up and even til death. Hey, these students are treated this way when they are like 16 or 17 and there are people who know this is wrong and tries to stop it while others can be woken by demonstrating the harm done to them, and they have the right to choose another subject in the first place; every single Chinese kids are treated this way since they are 6 or 7, totally innocent and haven't got the foggiest idea of democracy or autocracy, every single one that oppose such brain washing is either tortured or made suffered til they surrender or be isolated and excluded for the rest of his/her life in China.

Is this obvious enough?

Wicked Logics of Quilts

Been pretty sick for quite a few days now and skipped heaps of uni... And I was so bored lying in bed daydreaming. And, here's what I've got out these days, about the warmth of 3 quilts, the arranging.

Let's assume quilts 1, 2 and 3, same materials, thickness 1+2=3. Arrangement 12 means quilt 1 is inside with quilt 2 on top, 21 means quilt 2 inside with quilt 1 on top. Simple huh?

Which one's warmer, 123 or 321?

123 definitely. Heat loss rate 1>2>3 no doubt? Heat loss from 3 is easier to go through 2 and 1 than heat loss from 1 to go through 2 and 3, as simple as that. We could go further. The space between two quilts stores heat that is lost from the bottom quilt but not able to go through the top one, the heat is easier to go through the thinner layer than the thicker layer, and if you like, consider the heat between itself as one layer, isn't it warmer when the layer of heat is closer to you?

Does 1+2=3?

No. You could think of it simply because 12=/=21=/=3. Don't mean either 12 or 21 is warmer than 3 though. The opposite. 3 is solid thickness of 3 while either 12 or 21 is not. Think of the heat layer again, yes some of the heat might go back down but there's not as much thickness above to prevent it from the loss.

Conclusion, 1<2<21<12<3<31<13<32<23<321<312<231<213<132<123. Well, not quite a conclusion like that yet, this one is based on the speculation that thickness being the first rule. If not things will be different.

Time to Write a Bit about You

Well it's been... A month and a half since then? My little elf.

I don't actually know what to say here, we chatted a lot and we had a great weekend together and that's all we had been through. I know we have more than that. And yes I do look forward to seeing you again, a whole week? That sounds extremely exciting to me!

Well that's about what I could write here, there are more but I'll leave it for now. You know I love you.

Not Supposed to Be Here

There is something going on that it seems we are not as close as it used to be. Was it just that I think too much? Or this is actually the way it should be right from the start? I can't think.

I was worried about you. I messaged you to ask if you are ok cos it's been days that I wasn't in contact with you. You replied like few days later but did not answer. You made me even worried but I was afraid to ask again. Well I suppose you will tell me if there is something wrong. I suppose you are going fine. I just can't help thinking.

I thought we were like soul mates. I still think so. I feel connected with you, especially intellectually. Yes one message from you warms me up for a whole day that I just can't stop grinning, I am a sinner.

I watched a movie called Drift lately, well the characters wasn't good looking but I'm not for that anyway. I feel like Ryan playing as Leo in that movie. Interestingly enough, the movie has three endings, I liked the second one and forgot what the first one was about already. I don't know how it will actually end up to be though, I don't have the ability to choose the best ending for myself. It's just time will tell.

I've never said I love you, but I do and you knew it. Thing is, you wouldn't know how much was there and I don't wanna tell. I cannot just say it, partly that I was not brave enough, and that it would be more than irresponsible, for them both.

Just so you know.

Tire

I though the middle break was RIGHT NOW and it's NOT! I'll have to wait for another TWO WEEKS for it to come along... Well in these two weeks, we got two or three microbiology reports due, one nutrition simulation and one microbiology mid term exam... Well these are not the worst things. Thing is, my body's ready for the break and all I could feel is nothing but tire...
Let me have some more sleep now... And I'll wake up to start the reports, or who knows...

Russia!

The US must be pretty embarrassed by now on the incidence of Georgia. The trick played by Russia is definitely wise and stunning, given the fact that it mimes the model what NATO got used to on other countries (Yugoslavia, Afghanistan, Iraq etc) and uses it back on the NATO itself. Well, it is clear that this time Georgia is in fault timing the attack during the Olympics and wishes to involve the US, and called ceasefire once the Russian army started 'helping' the attacked territories defending and realized that the US is not gonna help.

Russia took the chance and swung a big slap right at the face of the NATO, then recognizes the independence of South Ossetia and Abkhazia. See what US says? Separatists? Why don't they recognize themselves as separatists while separating Yugoslavia? Well given the Yugoslavian government is evil in NATO's eyes, what is so good about the Georgian one in Russian eyes?

I'm proud of Russia this time, even if only by the smart trick it played.

China, a Giant in Sports?

I know that China is leading the medal tally in the Beijing Olympics, however, I don't think number of gold medals represents a country's level in terms of sports, this is especially not true under China's government funded 'professional' athletes.

I don't see any other countries than China ever establish so-called 'college of sports', where you don't do much other than training. Such colleges are government-funded and aim for the medals in Olympics solely. While the trainings inside the college is evil, i.e. one will easily be beaten up for making a mistake something like that in training. The athletes, in their youth years, knows almost nothing more than training and competition. Not only had the prolonged training ripped of the right of the athlete being educated normally, to the age of retire from their career as an athlete, they may probably suffer chronic injuries from it. I've heard a former gold medaller of women's 10,000m running suffers so seriously from the training that she cannot even walk for long distances and her feet is distorted. She cannot work as a PE teacher due to her injuries, her whole life is ruined by the training. And, this is only one of the countless cases of athletes don't get a job and suffering for the whole life thanks to the training and gold medals.

Outside the 'college of sports' the sport is completely different. There are some sports such as badminton and table tennis that have a massive base of popularity among the mass, it is no wonder that Chinese people can do well in such sports and these gold medals are the only ones China deserves. The others, well, which woman else the hell in China does weight lifting of hundreds of kilos other than the ones inside the training just for the fun of it?

Actually for many of the sports that China had a gold medal on, at least half of the citizens had never touched it ever in their whole life! Diving? Rings anyone?

Besides, the physical education outside the 'college of sports' are extremely poor. For anyone in the 3rd year of middle school or high school in China, you can see PE classes are around one session out of 40 per week if not completely eliminated in there timetable. And if you ask the students, they will probably tell you that many of these one per week session are looted by other subjects, simply because PE is not essential for graduating and move onto the higher level of education!

Well what Chinese people concern is solely on the number of the gold medals gained, they never ask the value of each medal, well if Chinese boys could ever get a gold medal in men's soccer in my life extend, I think I will be more than happy to admit that all of the above is bullshit and fly a blood flag cheering for China.

WHITE SENSATION!!

I couldn't be any more exited to get the ticket in the first possible stage for the White Sensation Party this New Year's Eve!!

Just see the video, which was the 5th July one held in Amsterdam. already can't wait!!

Minor Miracle

I bought some German beer from Aldi the other day as they were on sale. And before I finish them, I found my gum stopped bleeding! Amazing, although I'm not quite sure if there's a definite link between the two. Stop spitting red foams while brushing my teeth would never be bad though.

Recently

I've been pretty hazy these days. I should have finished my prac book by now but it was not yet halfway. I know I got another week for it but I really don't want to spend the rest of my holiday working on that 30 page book... Now, who can tell me who is the "classic" producer in Sicily for Nero D'Avola? I know I'll have to Google such and dive into the ocean of frauds to get some usful information because I can't even find the answer on Wikipedia... Grrr...

My gum's been bleeding for quite a few days and for no reason. Especially when I brush my teeth, I spit red foams. I don't even know where the blood was from because I can't see a cut or anything. It's just there, bleeding.

Been a pretty crappy day yesterday. I don't touch basketball as someone knows me may know. I was dragged to a basketball field and standing at the side alone doing almost nothing for more than one hour, extremely upset but what else can I do? I just shouldn't have accepted to be there. It was so stupid just to telling that me ridden a bike there and stand for an hour then ride back. And when I was back home I found a birthday present for me, which is the one that I was most looked forward to this year, had been attempted delivered and no one's home! And the delivery people had left me a wrong consignment number that I cannot get it redelivered until tomorrow! I was so pissed off and helpless, but all that is left to do is wait.

The photos taken on my birthday is seen today... I don't know why I look so fat and my face perfectly round! I hate that and I'll have to work harder on my Wii Fit. Well, mentioning that, I had not touched it for over a week now cos last week was a real busy one and I've been trying to sleep back those times these days...

Ya better off for it now.

Difference

I noticed recently that many Chinese college or university students are complaining that their teacher doesn't allow them to cheat in the examination... What is wrong with them! They sound like cheating is perfectly justified because everybody does it, without thinking of what cheating actually is! I feel quite a bit of mercy to these guys but more of a despise. I can't understand why the student don't do what they should during term time and end up cheating in the exam to get a pass for the subject while they learn absolutely nothing after getting a diploma for the degree they are doing!

The overly extended intake of universities in China has been causing a huge problem, which makes people disrespectful the bachelor and even master degrees because it sounds like everybody is getting one. As the teaching resources are not capable in amount with the need of the students overly taken, resulting in horrible sacrifice of quality of education, and hence further reduce the value of the degree. Adding those guys that shouldn't be qualified for entry of universities entering and struggling with it, you could imagine.

The pay for the graduates, on the other hand, is horrible. A bachelor from a regular university would probably accept an office job paying under two thousand Yuan per month. What's the concept? In a regular city the rent of a regular apartment room for the person would be 600-800 Yuan per month, food is at least 15 Yuan per day, eating out would cost more than 30 per person. A T-shirt not from luxury brands costs about 100-200 Yuan. Transportation would be around 5 Yuan per day. That means a graduate might not even afford average everyday living costs. Now, what about the tens of thousands of Yuan that his/her parents thrown onto the higher education? There's not only no sign of higher pay in reward for the input, the graduates are even suffering from poverty after expensive higher education, isn't that ridiculous enough?

Not trying to give suggestions here. The universities is not to be blamed for extended intake. Parenting is different in China that all kids are expected to finish university no matter what they are actually into. This is a big problem itself as with the population boom and place of universities limited. The government's probably forcing the universities to extend intake to please parents without considering bigger disaster following up.

University, as well as other higher educations, should be offered and "Elite Education", people who are not really keen to or able to receive a university level education should not be pushed into universities, I would rather be happier to see them earn their own living early with some skills instead of struggling in the universities playing tricks for a pass and ruin the image of university as well as graduates.

It is gone quite a bit off title but I ain't keen to hold it back for such long days, so here it goes.

Round Trip, the Other Way Though

Back in Melbourne more than one hour late from Gold Coast as Qantas engineers strike delays my Jetstar flight... When the bus reach Southern Cross it's like 12:20 so no wonder no trains or trams anymore on a weekday... Took a cab home and have to change the linen something and take a shower, bed at about 2.

Turn back a bit.

I don't remember I have ever cried like that in a bus, well actually I haven't been crying for quite a long while, and I don't even know what it is for. We'll definitely meet again right? It doesn't work that way no matter what right? Why is it like something very important that I lost somehow while I've never had it? I know I did seem weird taking up two seats with my backpack, sobbing and looking around a crowded bus through my tears, I meant to stop it but I just can't help until it was like fifteen minutes to the airport that I managed to calm down. I tried to make myself cry last night on the bed but it did not work until I am writing such stuff now.

It's maybe that hug. I finally work out.

You remind me too much about that person I guess, whom I had never hugged like that from the front. I've not been imagining the scene we say good bye, but I never expected I would cry as I was like forgot how to, I managed not to cry in front of you though. You weren't easy at that stage as well, I could see that.

Home (not mine though)

I haven't been getting used to sitting at that table on the floor crossing my legs as I told you my durability is horrible, plus the sore legs I had from that climbing. So I have been virtually lying and shifting while we were talking. I noticed that you didn't get used to look at me while we talk, that makes sense though as following what you told me later. I've been enjoying all those chats like that, very much, and I don't think I have ever talk about all those stuff to a friend face-to-face... Bit too embarrassing isn't it? Sometimes for me, but I guess it gets lots worse if I were chatting to somebody else.

Mt. Warning

All I hope is that while that large woman went pass very quickly me saying sorry on the way down she didn't hear me say 'inertia'... The rental car stuff had been very frustrating throughout the day as we almost hit on all the tricks that stupid company made...

Dream World

Bit of regret not having played Tower of Terror, not the other one though... Well if I were having someone to go with whom I could grab while falling and screaming, I would probably go.

Brisbane city

I was to say that it was bit like Sydney with a botanic garden in CBD that I realized that Melbourne has one as well... Difference is, there's not much stuff special in the Melbourne one as far as I remember, while all what Sydney botanic garden had left in my memory was the annoying flies, this one in Brisbane is actually pretty nice, I think I only mean the wet land ecosystem part beside the river looking over to Kangaroo point though. walking in there was a pretty good relax.

Picasso

The one currently showing in GoMA is not actually all Picasso's work, instead, was his own collection of some of his work and the others. The show's been pretty nice but takes too long and I didn't know that prior that I got hungry at about 2/3 of it and had to rush through the rest and run out for a Subway. Well the other bad thing for travelling alone is that I would feel weird entering gourmet restaurants alone, which ends up junk food all the way...

BEAT

The last stop of my pub tour on the first night. Not much actually, only thing is I promised a crazy girl that I will say goodbye before leaving while I actually ended up not finding her before leaving... Well I doubt I had put any effort on that though...

Brisbane Airport

Like always, feeling bit of dizzy arriving a strange city. Worked out my way to the hotel without much trouble though. The train stop I was to get to is closed... I realize that it should be the case in Brisbane just like showground in Melbourne as well. It's alright though it only takes a 10-minute walk from Brunswick St station anyway. One thing embarrassing is just that the train opens theirs doors in a different way than Melbourne trains does as the button is not on the door...

Melbourne Airport

Been arriving early, a big Boost just kept me running to toilets...

Sheep Counting

It had become pretty frustrating that I cannot fall asleep without counting sheep, even if I did, it doesn't always work... Just bought some chamomile tea from Coles, hope it would work tonight...

Well I was wondering, what to think while counting sheep helps me falling asleep?

Usually when I count sheep, I'll think of their arrangements according to the number counted, though I am not that kind of math savvy... The arrangements are in different forms, among which the simplest way is add them to a circle and imagine the circle enlarges, but what I usually do is try to arrange them as rectangles or squares, which requires much more maths... :S It is usually the case that my head gets bit of slower than the count as the number increases and I'll think hard, which comes one of the thresholds. I'll either find it harder and harder to get the image of sheep arranging then fall asleep or simply dumped counting and remained awake.

The classic sheep counting is more likely to imagine the sheep jump over the fence one after another despite the number counted. But with numbers counting aloud I can't help myself concentrating on the ones that are in the fence... I must declare again that I ain't a math savvy, but I don't think one would believe if they only read this, I actually am not though...

I didn't know why am I writing such crap but there's a voice in me calling for it so here it is... Another thing is I found the quality of posts here gets worse with time... Maybe I should reduce the frequency of updating...

How about some sunshine? How about some beach?

I shouldn't have been thinking of such actually as I am supposed to be revising for the exams coming from next week. Thing is, if I ain't planning that right now, I don't have another chance to.

Ya I am thinking of an escape to Queensland and I am almost finished planning. I think I'll fly to Brisbane on 23rd or 24th June, this is actually the hardest part. I hate those cheap airlines not offering a good price to Brisbane from Melbourne. There's only two flights every day by Jetstar and not at all by Tiger. The Jetstar flights are extremely weird, besides they all depart that desolate Avalon airport, you will have to either get up at 5:00 in the morning to catch the 8:00 flight or reach a complete strange city close to midnight... I would do neither. Think I'll choose to fly at noon or something by Virgin Blue, although the ticket is more expensive itself, the difference is not as much to cover taxi fares to Avalon, which would probably costs $120.

After two or three days visit in Brisbane I'll ride a train to gold coast and stay in a friend's place, which they just moved in. They will be happy to show me around I'm sure, but it is pretty embarrassing I would have to bother them for quite a while. I'll then fly back to Melbourne.

Wish I could make it as I am still not quite sure about the Brisbane part... But I'll try anyway, to escape from the windy and freezing weather in Melbourne, and to embrace some sunshine and beach up Queensland.

Memoir (Childhood)

Just seen someone talking about his childhood, reminding me a lot here, so here I am. Before I forget more of them.

I have not had much memory about my pre-kindergarten life. I remember living in the second floor of a pretty old house facing the street, when mum cooks in the kitchen I would usually be put on a cane chair surrounded by a table tennis net. I remember I often fall off that chair and got my head hit on the floor, then no doubt started crying. I remember I play often in a neighbour's house and sometimes have dinner with them. Mum told me it was because they are worried that I often fall and took me there while she's cooking.

I have no memory of my first kindergarten but mum told me it was pretty sad memory to her, that when she picks me up after work she often found me tied on a urinal because there are too many children that the workers are too busy to take care of everyone.

When I grow up a bit to like 4 or 5, I was transferred to another kindergarten, and lived there. I remembered crying every Monday morning and finally found that it is actually more like a ritual than real mourn. I was special in that kindergarten. Everyone takes a nap in the afternoon according to the timetable but I could seldom sleep in the light. The teachers/nurses in the kindergarten would then tells tales to me or make me help them a little bit sometimes when other children are sleeping.

And I was even special in terms that I was like a star at the moment. I was acting in various commercials at the time, and once attended a fashion show last for months. And there was a time that I went to Jiangxi for a film shooting and stayed there for like one month, but the film is eventually abandoned because the scenario didn't pass the censoring. I remembered the weather was extremely hot that we have to pour water outside our doors to ease it, whereas the watermelons there are fabulous and incredibly cheap.

Yes, they are all memories now. Memories fade, don't want it that quickly though.