Wednesday, June 13, 2007

Yesterday, Your Birthday

Should be the first one ever that I didn't spend with you since the first time we met... Simply because we are too far apart.
We chatted yesterday, though not much. I was to call you and you said your phone's got a problem. It should be better than I just cry on your birthday from thousands of miles away and calling you just to make you hear.
I know I still can't let go, even after we haven't met for nearly one year.
The scar you gave is deep inside me, it still hurts whenever I miss you. You are the one for me, I'm not for you. That's what people regard tragedy.
We were apart, then together, then apart, then far apart. You just in me, ever since the first time I realize your existence. You are whom I will never escape wherever I am, which was destined.
I am losing the ability to love. The feeling of in love just fade, leaving you in mind. I tried but trapped. Maybe I could find someone someday to love me overwhelmingly enough to take up your place in my mind, but it's definitely no one until now, when it was two years since we part.
The scenes betweens us still feels like yesterday. The first time I grabbed your hand in class, the first time I hugged you from the back, and the first time I was turned on. The moment my arms around you while sleeping, the time we spent going around skipping classes, the sweet squabbling between us. The moment I hear your heartbeat, the moment I hear my heartbreak. The last time I kissed your neck, the last time I nipped your ear, and the moment you turned around staring at me and pushed me away.
Anyway, happy birthday.

No comments: