Moments

Been so missing such stuff... Throughout my life. Of course, every "you" is probably different and most of these are not love stories, though a few of them are.

Hand in your hands, stunned looking at a dilapidated wall with a big black "break down" written on, circled. This is probably my first memory ever.

The stairwell of a not-so-old apartment. Way up to your flat. We were just kids.
You said "I hate you", without giving me time to surprise, "the opposite."
"What's that opposite?" You just avoided that and giggled, then ran faster up.

Lined up marching down the stairs, I asked, "Do you still remember what you said to me that time?" You just look hazed.

Hid a message asking you out in an origami, but I was late that time and you've already gone. Looked at the busy street helpless.

Way home together, at a small roadside water bar.
"Two pearl milk tea" You said to the sales person, then turn to me, "Which flavour you like?"
I hardly remembered what did I actually order cos that happened too many times. The only thing I know is that mango was among them, and it was disgustingly sweet. You were always treating me and I still cannot find a chance to treat you back until now.

Meant no offense trying to approach while you were talking with someone else, got only one word "Gossipy". Turned away fast.

A small hot dog stand in a strange city of a strange country.
We bought hot dogs for ourselves, not knowing what "ketchup" and "custard" means, not even until the sales person gave us some each as sample, I still cannot recognize the custard so I just chose ketchup. You had both and we sneak back to the hall of our hotel, had it and tried not to be seen. Anyway I got furiously scolded for taking you out that evening.

In a small noodle house, I am on diet.
We ordered only one Noodle and started head to head, until you said "Well this is not gonna work, you first." Then I just took half of that bowl of noodle and watched you had the rest.

At home on my bed.
Crying for the whole noon when received your text, got a bit of stronger after that but still blown by another "you".

At the bus stop where we usually wait for our bus to school. School time.
I approached you and murmured "Sorry", you turned back and, after a week of no conversation at all, you began to talk to me.

Night, I asked your mobile phone number, you told me, I forced myself to remember it by heart, not using my phone to record it, I managed to remember that number for quite a long time even after we stopped going out together.
And I managed to forget it now.

I whispered something into your ear while holding you, you just sprung up and runaway. I cannot forget that last glance on me, stunned and hurt.

Walking on a bridge with you, you screamed "I love you" to the river. Well, you love the river, I know.

Midnight, woke up crying for you, cannot be myself without you. Sent you a text saying "I miss you" without describing how much, yet unfortunately got overlooked by somebody else, and luckily.

On a party, where we played the instruments, there was a time we should gong but we didn't, just winked to each other, and go on.

In front of a school building, you handed me a hand-knitted scarf for me and we embrace.

Lifted a bit of the curtain of the porthole, it was all golden outside with the rising sun, my world had never been so beautiful.

You left my room, leaving me collapsed, alone, and hopeless.

On a tram in the evening.
I will be going down this stop. You were sitting while I am standing. I bent down to almost touching your lips to find it too embarrassed to do it here, and went down the tram laughing.